Matthew was Born in
Houston, Texas on
May 2, 1974. Matthew was 4 pounds and 4 ounces, he was tiny and ready for the world for all to see. It broke my heart that I had to leave him behind; when the Doctors told me that I could go home. It was so hard for me to do, but 2 weeks went by fast and then I could go back and get him and bring him home. My little son was the such a cuttie, that in order to bring him home he had to weight 5 pounds. He was a child that smiled a lot, and got into things like a normal little guy. Matthew was found crawling at the age of 19 days, yes 19 days, by his granny. Then when he was just a few months old he was really crawling and walking before he reached the age of one.
My Matthew was killed on January 5, 2008 at 1:48 am from a train accident; in Biloxi, Mississippi. The nature of the accident is very painful to mention, but the accident was not Matthew's fault. The only thing that I can say about my son's death was it was not needed and that everyone should not consume any alochol. I know that when one drinks and try to walk home they will not know where they will fall down or pass out on. I just pray to God that he never knew what hit him. I just can't imagine life without my son.
I was in shock that this was happening, but slowly I am coming out of it as I continue to try and put my life back together without him. As Matthew's mother; I look and see how other family member's have been dealing with his death and it saddens me to say, that they need to know that Matthew was a very sweet, kind and loving and he was a understanding and patient person and just because he didn't make good choices doesn't make him a bad person. I just hope that people will come to their own understanding and love Matthew as he so deserves. Even though he is no longer with us, I go to see him all the time, and make sure that the area he is sleeping in, is all nice and neat. I know that is what he would want. We all should not forgot what Matthew was all about and how he was so loved by all of us in our own special ways.
He was buried in Houston, Texas in a family plot. He is now with his Great Grand father and mother, a Great Aunt and Uncle and other family and friends that have gone before him.
As his mother, I believe that my Matthew lived life to it's fullness and was a fun loving person, and had a heart of gold. To bad that my heart of gold (Matthew) isn't with us any longer, he had placed a huge stamp on everyone's life. I can say that my Matthew will always stay at home with me in my heart.
I never in my wildest dreams would bury my child and then write about him and lite a candle and talk to him on the internet; as though he would respond to me by email. I am so sorry Matthew that you left. I wish I could have done something to help you out but you were so far away from me that it would have taken me 8 hours to get to you. I really do miss and love you so much that at times I cry and cry and cry...I know you are with me in my heart and will always be there until we met again someday. Rest in Peace my sweet Angel son.
Today is my Matthew's 34th birthday. I am so sad that he never got to celebrate this special day. I was also very sad that I had to work on this day, as I wanted to go to his grave site and wish he was here to see his celebration. I had to go the day before and I took him balloons, and a birthday cake that I made for him. The cake I made was out of flowers of white, yellow and purple, with cards in it so people that wanted to could write something on them. I also had some sprakely signs made up for his brother and little nephews. I am so sorry Matthew that other's didn't show up for your celebration like your Aunt Jan. I know she loves you, and misses you also. I know that if they could they would have been there. I know they love you.
While I was there to see Matthew, my sister and I sang to him this birthday wish, and then we released his birthday balloons to him one at a time. I told him he was missed and that I loved him so very much.
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Y O U, H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y T O D E A R E S T M A T T H E W,
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